Love is not magic…

Addiction sucks. It sucks for the addict and for anyone who loves them. The experience is so profound It changes who we are. We all know that only our children can save themselves but we are more than willing to suspend reality and fight for our kids even when they won’t. Ot maybe It’s their inability to fight for themselves that compel us to try even when it seems futile. I don’t care how highly evolved you are on the 12 Step Chain…you can only do what you can do. Sometimes that means turning our backs on our addicts and hoping they figure it out or embracing them even at the worst of times. We are human and I just can’t help but think we need to forgive ourselves for decisions we make because they all come from the best place in our hearts. Love is a powerful emotion but love is not magic. We can not wave our wands and love our children back to health.

All is well in my world, not perfect but I am okay and so is J. I continue to hurt for the many who still struggle and are not okay. I wish peace for us all with a good amount of happiness thrown in even during the darkest times.

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About madyson007

I am a mom of 4 who thought she was home free with her oldest son when he went off to college. My serious blunder? Genetics and being naive or maybe just plain stupid.
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5 Responses to Love is not magic…

  1. Liz says:

    Hi Mady, Been wondering how you’ve been.. Glad to hear things are going well.

  2. di says:

    Been following your journey for a while now. Your story is mine. Ugh. Thank you for the update. I check back occasionally to see if you’ve written, so I was very glad to see you had. My son (22 – 2 years heroin and about 6 month coke and heroin) is now on vivitrol for heroin (one month clean) and a week off coke. He uses pot to ease the symptoms (mostly anxiety). Hasn’t been a week clean off hard substances in 18 months so we are pleased with whatever he can do. Glad J is doing okay. Would love to know how. Hoping for peace for all us moms!

  3. Courtsmom says:

    It’s a tough life we live for sure. So happy to hear that life has settled down somewhat. It will never be perfect, but it is more than we could have hoped for. Thank you for coming back and letting us know how you’re doing.

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