I am taking J to his Suboxone Doctor tomorrow. He seems to be taking his sobriety seriously and that makes me happy. I go back and forth with my feelings. Am I happy? Yes. OH WAIT….happiness eventually leads to crashing disappointment. Just say no to happiness…umm but am I happy? Well, yes indeed I am….I mean NO. NO No no…not going there again.
If you were privy to the workings of my mind you would all probably find it quite entertaining.