J has been taking his Subs like a champ and the difference in behavior is amazing. I haven’t seen this J….my J in what seems like forever. Being the cool mom that I am I have been trying to catch him doing good things or hell just the right thing and telling him. Also being the cool mom that I am I can not help but mention on a fairly regular basis how easy it is for all of us when he is clean. I don’t think he recognizes that. J thinks he lives in this little insular world that affects no one but himself.
He is such a bright sun shiny joy to be around sub sober. It’s a shame that life needs to reach crisis point for him to pull it together. My father paid for a ticket so J is off to Florida on a little vacation. I feel pretty good about it because my parents are going to be in their glory when they see J and not the alien!
This is usually about the time I start to get all hopeful and gushing…I start talking about future possibilities and wishes. I have been there, done that and bought the tee-shirt. I am just going to enjoy the moment. His vacation is a vacation for me. That is all.