My son looks really bad. I have to face the fact that he looks like an addict. He has stopped shaving and only showers…well I am not sure when or if he showers. He is careless and doesn’t care about anything. There are wax wrappers every where…and yesterday my youngest son found a syringe on the counter in the bathroom. J looks grey. I am afraid he is going to die. I am afraid that I am going to have to watch. We have been taking his pay checks so he can pay back the money he stole from our bank account. He still manages to get drugs. He is at one of the lowest points in his life and oblivious. He continues to look at us like we are the crazy ones. He looks around with frantic grey eyes and misplaces things. He is losing his mind.
Should I call the police? Put him in a car and drop him in the middle of a town? Should I just except the fact that he is going to die and it might be sooner than any of us thought? There are so many parents that are struggling right now…some are suffering in silence and their blogs do not always reflect reality. My blog is just a fraction of my life. Pray for us….there are so many people suffering.
I don’t understand why J get’s to be numb while we watch him die.