I actually think you are being a little melodramatic Jeff. I work very hard to make sure that J’s umm “life” does not interfere with their “life”. In fact, so damn hard I am freaking exhausted. Going out to eat for Thanksgiving was not offered as a consolation prize. It was offered with all good intentions of being something unique, fun and possibly awesome.
Once again perception is everything. Apparently in writing this blog I have given the impression that I am slinking around with my head slung low and my tail between my legs and nothing could be further from the truth. I don’t have that luxury because if I did I would just curl up in my bed and get up only to grab chocolate chocolate chip ice cream from the freezer.
I live the cards I am dealt. I have two younger children who need a mom who loves and cares for them. I keep addiction as far away as possible…I succeed maybe 50% percent of the time. The effort I put into keeping their lives as normal as possible is a full time job but I do it with a smile because I love them and I don’t know any other way to do it.
What I write on this blog is often what the rest of the world never sees….including my family.