Choosing happiness…

is it possible?

Tomorrow I go back to work with a heavy heart. After working for 16 years they cut my hours to part-time.  I took a significant decrease in salary. It hurts more I think because I was the only one who lost a good amount of hours. There was one employee who had only worked for 6 months that was not offered a contract and one part-time teacher that wanted to go full-time but was only offered her original part-time position.  Everyone else’s hours stayed the same. There attitude was very apologetic and I don’t think that they were at all happy that they felt they had to do this but never the less it was my job they chose to put on the line.

I would really like to leave but we need the money. I think they are going to try to take advantage of me. They will want me to work extra hours at sub pay <—- which sucks. I just get the feel they are thinking “Damn we don’t have anyone to cover that afternoon class? Oh wait! Just ask M. to stay.”

I am trying to find happiness in this situation but not having a lot of luck. What they want is for me to do exactly what I have been doing for 16 years only cram it into a smaller amount of time, with less pay, less benefits and no lunch. Is there happiness to be found in this? Right now I have a lump in my stomach thinking about starting tomorrow. I feel like a sap.

I think they feel I should be happy I still have a job. Should I be happy I still have a job? I am just not feeling it right now. The USA is about to become a country of part-time jobs because if you have to many full-time employees Obama Care is going to kick in. So now you have parents with 6 part-time jobs between them trying to feed their children and many companies that have no intention of ever hiring full-time employees again.

This is a dark time we are living in. I fear for all those children graduating college. They will be obligated to pay those loans off immediately and many will never find full-time employment in this current climate. What is happening? Unemployment continues to rise…why do they tell us that we are on an economic up swing? There is no up swing for the middle class. Not long ago I would have considered myself upper-middle class…now I hate to answer the phone because it might be about a bill.




About madyson007

I am a mom of 4 who thought she was home free when my oldest son went off to college. My serious blunder? Genetics and being naive or maybe just plain stupid.
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3 Responses to Choosing happiness…

  1. sheila says:

    Right there with ya. After years of working two part-time jobs, I am currently unemployed. After 11 years of being a stellar employee, my husband was laid off six months ago. Nearly all “opportunities” are part-time, contract or temp with no benefits. It sucks. What they are doing to you sucks too. I also fear for our college grads, and for all those unemployed, especially those if us 50+ who also have to deal with age discrimination.

  2. Annette says:

    It is scary times for sure. Molly’s bf has his bachelors in psychology and works as a counselor in a children’s home for 9.50 an hour. Thats not a liveable wage, much less in Ca. College has become big business and it is so not the pathway to financial success anymore. I am sorry you are feeling so uncertain about your job and your value there. That is an awful position to be in. You aren’t alone Mads, in feeling like your socioeconomic status is sliding.

  3. Syd says:

    I can’t help but wonder about greed and the fact that the reasoning to cut back hours and positions is so those at the top are still secure with their take home pay. I’m sorry that you are going through this traumatic time. I believe that if the wealth were shared with employees by giving them benefits and full time positions, things would be so much better. But greed and the motivation to make more money at the expense of the workers seems to be the modus operandi in today’s world.

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