with J’s girlfriend. She got to speak with J today… the 7 day blackout period expired. She said he sounded great but very remorseful. They both cried a little and when she got off the phone with him she felt such disappointment. Her disappointment stemmed from the fact that he told her he was doing pills and she had no idea he was still doing Heroin. I actually got mad….I don’t really even know why???
Then I realized it was the same reason I say J’s is an opiate addict! I know there is such a stigma attached to the word Heroin. Two years ago I would have consoled her and nodded inunderstanding her disappointment. Today I felt insulted hmm….not at all sure this is progress??? I was insulted that she thought people who are addicted to Oxycontin are some how a better kind of addict, that they are a better kind of person. The flip side of that being, a Heroin addict is the worse kind…a disgusting person, living in the gutter.
Here is exactly how I responded:
People who abuse pills aren’t a better kind of addict or someone you should see as better off just as a heroin addict is not someone you should see as a lower life form.
I understand that people see “Heroin” in that low-life way but it kind of upsets me. Heroin addicts are not the low life people living in the gutter while the pill poppers are the nice people having “issues”. They are all addicts and they are all very ill. There is such a stigma attached to heroin…but if you are addicted to alcohol or pills or pot or meth and its messing up your life then they are all equally serious and equally suck unfortunately.
I think I hurt her feelings but we went on to talk about other and she seemed fine.