My son would be shocked to learn that it is my husband who does not want to throw him out. I had a shelter that I called…they had a bed and I was totally prepared to drop him off. J thinks dad is the bad guy but it is his father who is not ready to throw him out. It is also my husband who continually berates him on a regular basis. It is ugly. J is the at the receiving end of all his father’s rage. Yet…throw him out? HELL NO!
J is clean and has been for around a week. This time withdrawal was more traumatic. I think it scared him. He had not felt that horrible in probably two years.Why is this not enough? Why is the pain not enough for an addict to answer HELL NO to drugs? I am not strong enough to force J out with out the support of my husband. We both have to be on the same page. God forbid anything happened and my husband could say “See, I told you so” we are either all in or out. My husband gets closer to “all in” every time J messes up.
We could be the poster family for dysfunction…<sigh>
Edited to add: I am sure my husband is going to love this post…NOT.