They think I am stupid. I am not stupid but I am a coward. So I sit in this house swallowing my pride and paralyzed by fear. I go back to work/school in a week and my little ones go back a week after that. I don’t have family here and I don’t have money. I have no where to go because what I really want is to just be done with all things addiction. Why can’t they leave? I am the one who will take care of my younger kids and the two dogs. The two of them are two peas in a pod except they hate each other. I think for most of this journey from hell, I thought it was my genetics that did this. HA!
If either of them look at me like I am crazy one more time, I am going to…I don’t really know and there in lies the problem.