My entire married life I have never doubted my love for my husband or his for me. I have gotten mad and in the heat of the moment had thoughts of “What if I did not marry the boy next door?…” but who has not gone back and looked at major forks in the road and wondered what if? So umm, what is going on?
I was looking at Valentine’s Day cards today for my husband and had some, well for lack of a better word…difficulties. They are all divided into categories like, romance, humor, children and a ton of other sub categories like husbands, kids and wives. Each year, I enjoy finding a special card for my husband that will mean something to us both. Promises are written, love professed and whispers of future passion. So, why could I not bring myself to buy a single card for my husband? Why could I not find anything that rang true. I could not find a single card in “Romance” that felt right…Heck I couldn’t find a humorous one. Are these feelings temporary or have my feelings for my husband some how changed? What is different? I can’t seem to put my finger on it and it scares me.