Three years ago when I went on Wellbutrin for depression an amazing thing happened. I felt better! I came out of this gloomy cloud and an interesting side effect transformed my life. My self-diagnosed ADHD improved dramatically. It was a very pleasant side effect. Now I have had ADHD all my life but when I was younger it was just not talked about or really addressed the way it is now. My disorganization, lack of focus and failure to pay attention to the details was always swept under the rug or blamed on other things. Things like, l was one of the very youngest in school because of my fall birthday, or it is a stage that children grow out of. As I got older I blamed it on other things, I just had a baby or well heck I have 4 kids now and on and on the excuses went. Well, lately these symptoms have come back in full force. I am not sure if it is because J’s addiction no longer consumes my life so other things have become a little clearer or my medication is no longer working as well.
Yesterday I was driving down the road behind a senior citizen. I was so irritated. Under normal circumstances I might mutter under my breath. Yesterday, I yelled “Drive your damn car or get off the road and die”. After, I said it I actually laughed out loud because I could not believe that came out of my mouth! This is not my normal demeanor umm mostly.
Another thing that has really been bothering me is my lack of attention AGAIN. I have always been a PROLIFIC reader. The best thing about summer for me has always been the extra time I would have to catch up on all my reading. I have been trying to finish one book for the last 6 month not just one particular book but any damn book! Heck I am having trouble watching an entire movie.
I have a doctors appointment on the 25th. I have never really addressed these issues with my doctor the side effect of Wellbutrin helping my adhd was just a delightful thing that was stumbled upon. Now it is no longer working. Can a woman in her 40’s go to the doctor and say I want to be treated for ADHD.
Sadly, I have passed this happy trait on to three of my 4 children. J is the only one currently being treated for his ADHD. It makes a startling difference in his daily life when he takes it regularly. I think my youngest son will also be medicated for adhd by the end of the summer.
After it is all said and done would it have been to much to ask that my children inherit my best traits like a kind heart and a great sense of style? I’m just sayin’.