Ok, tomorrow will be one week since I had surgery. I miss my gallbladder or evidently my body misses it. It is in mourning and letting me know how upset it is, by going on strike! It’s not like I didn’t want to keep the little guy but there are only so many times you can go to the emergency room before everyone starts loosing patience. Sadly, It was time for him to go. The incisions are fine and really only hurt when I sneeze, cough or lift something well and maybe when I sit up to fast. The problem is my stomach has been revolting all week. It has gotten to the point that I am developing a food aversion. Nothing stays in…at all. The doctor seems to think this will improve with time. I have to go back to work on MONDAY!
I don’t know if I ever mentioned it but J’s addiction was the best diet I have ever been on. Anyone else ever go on the *”MOA or POA diet” successfully? In the past two years I dropped 35 pounds, which was a good thing. I am thinner than when I got married which was when I was 21 and umm looked good in a bikini. Why is it I don’t still look good in a bikini. Maybe it’s those dang 4 kids I had…I’m just sayin’.
The whole point of this conversation is…if my stomach revolt keeps up, I am going to be the size 4 I have always dreamed of being by summer and I am thinking this is not a good thing. Geeze it was not like I needed this useless little organ!
On a side note: J has court today. One case has been resolved, and today, this one may be resolved too. I will post about the outcome of all the cases soon I hope. I can say it does not look like he will be going to jail but there will still be some pretty significant consequences. Anything happens again…hello court appointed lawyer…hello jail…do not pass go.
J looks good and I think one of the consequences he is experiencing is: being of sound mind makes everything so clear to him. It probably felt much easier living through a haze and not having to feel the clarity of his choices. I am proud of him but he has a way to go. His daily choices still feel a little stunted for his age. Waiting until the last minute for everything and not participating in paying bills. His money is still his money but our money is everyones money. He really gets nothing from us other than food and a warm house but that needs to change and soon. Rent is on the horizon now that he is working a little more. On the other hand two big improvements I see are his sleeping patterns which are MUCH more normal and his sense of time seems to be improving.
I am convinced an active addict has ABSOLUTELY no sense of time. 5 minutes, 2 hours, 0r 20 minutes just does not register. It is not that they won’t get up (even though that may be true sometimes) or move faster to make it to an appointment, it’s like they are unaware and unable to sense time. Everything is just one big illusion when you are high…WTH is up with that?
*MOA= Mom Of an Addict
*POA=Parent Of an Addict