I am seriously considering not blogging anymore. Every time I think things can’t get worse…stupid me. I have not been able to get a hold of Jay for a couple of days. He is not answering his phone, his girlfriend is not giving me a straight answer and Sunday he stopped by to drop off dirty laundry and to borrow our vacuum cleaner. Then the next day I come home and his girl friends car is in our driveway but they are nowhere to be found. Then I go out again to check on their car and they are gone? I have just about every stitch of clothing he owns and I have not heard from him since Sunday and he has my damn vacuum cleaner. I can see on his Facebook that he has been in contact with questionable characters. I really give up. I shouldn’t be surprised but it is like getting punched in the gut. I am breathless.
I will never ever say my son is clean again. You win GOD. I should have been down on my knees praising fake sobriety. I won’t make that mistake again. This time it is me who is lost.