I have had an Ahaaa moment… He just called me crying. I am sick with emotion but I was calm and unyielding. He is telling me that he is trapped he does not know what to do to get out of where he is right now. He wants to be a better person, he wants a life with a future and on an on. He was absolutely sincere…he was so upset he could barely talk. Three things could be going on here. 1. He is withdrawing from an opiate. 2. He is withdrawing from Suboxone. 3. He has hit rock bottom and is asking for help. The ahaaa moment is that the answer is the same to all of these scenarios.
He needs to go to rehab because he wants to get better and it is the answer to his hopelessness. He needs to not see this as a punishment but as his best tool for survival. He needs to get off ALL MEDICATIONS….including anxiety, sleeping pills or any other form of drug he takes over or under the counter. Until he sees that I don’t think things will change. His girlfriend also has problems of her own that she needs to get help with.
I pretty much told him that and he hung up on me. I am not really sure what he wants me to do or say? When will he realize that only he has the power to change his life? When will he see by doing nothing or doing the same gets you the exact same results. He has tried it his way…when will he try it the way millions have with success. A proven program like NA. It will be his new beginning until then we all wait. I was going to say wait and watch but I am done watching…I wish the waiting was over too.
I also just need to say that I love him so much it hurts and I pray that he realizes that even when he hates what I say.