but so far so good. I feel so foolish when I post that he is doing well…it is like getting kicked in the teeth when something happens. You all know that feeling the one that knocks the breath out of you and moves your heart into your throat so that you can’t even swallow. I want to believe but I am no longer that naive mother who thinks blindly that this is it, it is all over and we made it through. He is 2 months clean now and that is a huge accomplishment for him. He is dealing with multiple legal issues which are going to effect him for the rest of his life and of course this breaks my heart…and before everyone starts leaving messages about how there are consequences for his actions and they are his consequences yada, Yada, YADA. I understand that and so does he BUT it still breaks my heart to know that he will not be able to vote, he will not be able to receive financial aid for college and will have to check that box that asks “Are you a convicted felon?” all because of those very stupid choices he made. Please join me in praying for sobriety with happiness and an eagerness to get on with his life for J. I am happy he is alive.
<Looking up to see if there is a shoe hovering and covering my head in anticipation>…so sad not to be able to fully engage in happiness for J’s sobriety.
I think I am going to blog next about “Why does sobriety not necessarily= happiness?” for the addict nor the loved ones in their lives.