I think you might come on my computer every once in a while and read my blog. I know you said you never would because it would be to painful, but I think you peek to see if I still care.
Here is something you are not going to believe but I need you to hear. I am ready to give up. I am ready to accept that your consequences are your own and that I can not help you if you do not want to be helped. I am devastated but resigned. I can no longer lie to family and friends and say everything is fine. I will tell close friends and family that you are very ill and that we should all pray for you because I think that is the only thing left. This does not mean that I love you any less. I love you with all my heart and would take on your pain and addiction to give you a new life but that is just not possible. So I will just have to let go…
The second thing you are not going to believe is that your dad refuses to give up on you. The dad that looks at you with such anger and can barely speak to you in a civil voice is just not ready to give up. I hope you can recognize through all his anger how much he really loves you and desperately longs for your recovery. He believes in you! Believe in your self!
So both your dad and I sit and wait and do nothing…praying you make the right choice.