is not working. So guess what I did? I went to a real live al-anon meeting. I am not sure what I feel? Kind of numb which I guess is better than I felt when I left the house which was despair. I am not exactly sure what I am supposed to get out of the meeting, but I met some very nice people who shared some of their stories which I could relate to. The theme was put the focus on your self. I didn’t cause it, I can’t cure it and I sure as hell can’t control it which of course is what many of you have been telling me.
I want to ask a very specific question and I really hope to get some help. I can not seem to detach with love and watch it happen at the same time. He says he is clean, I know he is not. Where is the boundary in that? If he yells, I shut down. I am batting zero here. What the hell am I doing?