He is clean but his behavior is erratic. He is depressed, almost destructively so…he does not know how to help him self. I am not buying this tough love thing today. If I turn him out, he will kill himself whether that means turning back to opiates or just sticking his head in an oven. Things are not good and I don’t know what to do. Today his out patient program called me to let me know that our insurance has denied coverage for anymore treatment. What the hell? My son is sober but in danger and he is not covered anymore? If God only gives us what we can handle then he has severely over estimated my abilities right now.
On another note of despair…we were served papers, by our neighbors. They are suing us for an incident that involved their daughter breaking her wrist on our property. She says my son who was 4 years old at the time pushed her, he is 6 years old now and doesn’t remember any of it. They are suing us for assault and battery and 7 counts of negligence. Their house is in foreclosure, the husband was fired from the police department for stealing un-marked money from the evidence room. They are quite desperate. I understand desperate…and it’s a scary place .
I am in a really bad way right now…I am frightened.