He went to court with my husband this afternoon . It went well. I guess? The case was dismissed with the condition that he will be on probation for a year and randomly drug tested. If he stays clean for a year all traces of this case will be erased from his records. If he fails during this year of probation, all charges will be reinstated and he will go to jail. My husband paid the fines with the expectation that J will pay him back, but that would require a job, something we hear a lot about but it hasn’t happened.
On Friday he will be meeting with a psychiatrist about Suboxone. Our plan is for him to go on the Suboxone and give him a month to get a job. This is his one and only time we will ever financially support him in court. He is on his own from now on and we have made that very clear.
I am tired, I need to digest this information and I will blog about it more at another time. I don’t know what to think? I always believe in him and so far he has always let me down. It just gets harder and harder to invest emotionally in his recovery. If that makes any sense? Thank you all for the support you have offered. I really do gain strength from it and I need that now because I can see how this “addiction” will swallow you whole and spit you out if you remain fragile and naive for too long.