I wrote about this earlier in my blog but me and three others were the only ones reading “A Mom’s Serious Blunder” at the time… Now that I have the eyes of such experienced parents, there is something I have been wanting to talk about and get feed back on.
Please don’t judge me but I am almost sure at this point we are going to try to get our son into a suboxone program. I no longer believe that choosing not to use is just a matter of will power and free choice. If this a disease and there is medication that will treat it…I want him to try it. I want to hope that there is still a chance at “normal” for him. Which seems to be the case for many who go on Suboxone…complete turn arounds and happy endings! I really hope I am not setting myself up for a big fall again. Ok , ok I am working on that feeling. Really I am.
Any child or adult who has been in rehab or detox has been given Suboxone. I was always so pleased to hear how good J sounded when he was “in patient” for a handful of days. J always told me it was the Suboxone but I never really knew what he meant. I thought he sounded normal and good because he was finally clean, but now I am not so sure. He explained to me that he felt very normal on Suboxone, a lot like how he felt pre-using days. His mind was not clouded by constant thoughts of using, not using, craving, withdrawals, panic and anxiety etc… I felt for sure this was just a another “happy drug” but he swore to me he just felt normal, almost peaceful. He says there was absolutely no “pay off” or “high”, just a calm sort of normal and the doctor confirmed those conclusions.
After his last relapse, I started investigating Suboxone in more detail. Some stories sound almost to good to be true, but I have talked to many and they seem to be genuine success stories. What I am not hearing is any failures on Suboxone but I find that hard to believe too. Do any of you wise men and woman have any experience with Suboxone. Let me clarify that by saying I am looking for people whose children have actually tried it or are currently using it. I am not afraid to hear all information anyone might have but I have been burned by parents who think they know about Suboxone but really know VERY little specifically about Suboxone. I do understand that it is an addictive drug but it is not like Methedone. Check out http://www.suboxone.com if you are looking for information.
Here are my thoughts: I do not believe that Suboxone is trading an opiate addiction for another addiction. I believe it just might be trading a life of addiction, for a life of treatment. Any thoughts? This thought was an epiphany directly from Tom at Recovery Help Desk.
I just recently came to realize how controversial this drug apparently is in the addiction community. When talking about it in a 12 step chat room, I was shocked how strongly people reacted to my admission that we were looking into Suboxone.