I could just cry with relief. I can actually feel the prayers and comfort being sent my way. I am so lonely much of the time. My son’s addiction is not something I feel I can share with my friends in real life. I feel so much shame. Now if I could only carry out these wonderful suggestions, my life might actually change. The problem is I really don’t know how to separate myself from my son’s problems. I really do try but I am not terribly successful. However, it is clear to me if I don’t learn to deal and soon, I am going to lose me mind. I went to one nar-anon meeting and it was great, I left feeling like I had a plan. However when he relapses not only does he start from square one, so do I. When I go back and read some of my posts, I can see how fragile I seem. It is really odd to look at because in general I am not like that. I am a strong woman who holds a family of 6 together. I am just so scared this house of cards is coming down.
Thank you all, it is such a comfort to know that I am not alone.