I have never wanted to let my son hit a rock bottom that would profoundly impact his future. I am beginning to realize he will not hit rock bottom if it doesn’t profoundly effect his future. How sad is that? I need him to move out. I need him not to be a part of our lives. I don’t care if he needs to live in a homeless shelter but he can not live here anymore. I think every addict starts with a free pass card. We make excuses for them, we enable them and just generally fix things for them while contorting our own lives. That free pass card starts at 100%…united we stand, we would do anything to help yada yada yada. Slowly an addict starts chipping away at that 100% free pass. He relapses, he steals, he gets in trouble with the law and he lies. That is the biggest one for me…the lying. My son can look me in the eyes and lie so convincingly, I will give him my car or money for gas or a ride etc… All the time me believing in him and him lying again and Again and AGAIN! I can not make him care or to be a better person or to do the right thing. I just get to watch him do the same crappy things over and over again. Is this some kind of cruel trick GOD? His free pass has expired only he doesn’t know it yet.
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