I should be happy…

My son got a job! That’s what I wanted right?  Then why do I feel nothing but uneasiness?  It’s because I can not control a part of his life that could cause him to relapse.  I have to trust him to do the right thing and that is a very difficult thing to do right now.  When he received his birthday money through the mail from his grandparents it took less than a day for him to relapse.  Now he will have free access to his car and money from work and there is nothing I can do about it.  He is 20 years old.  I can’t micro manage his life forever can I?  The truth is I wish he was still a boy and I made all the major decisions in his life but I  am not all that sure what I would or could change?  I don’t know for sure what I could have done differently to change this life we are all living right now.

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About madyson007

I am a mom of 4 who thought she was home free with her oldest son when he went off to college. My serious blunder? Genetics and being naive or maybe just plain stupid.
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2 Responses to I should be happy…

  1. Laura says:

    Wishing you and your family the very best.

    Sorry, I am not the best at one way street support.

    Laura

    • madyson007 says:

      I was unable to respond to your blog. I would love to offer support please email me your site. I think it is password protected? Thank you for your continued support Laura!

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