We are all in pain…

I see my son tear up, he is emotionally in pain and doesn’t know how to stop it.  He is not “using” but his behaviors are almost the same as if he was.  He knows it, we know and we all feel powerless.  Right now his biggest issue is sleep deprivation.  He can not sleep well, he sleeps a couple hours at a time. This is just one of the many residual long-term effects of using drugs.  It can take up to 6 months or longer for his body to reset its internal clock.  He has always had sleep issues since his early teens.  I think part of the “pay off” of his using was his ability to sleep better…a drug induced ssleep yes, but the deep penetrating sleep that he craves.  I crave it too my mind races at night, both my husband and I sleep fitfully at best.  The worry, pain and dysfunction of this family weighs heavily on all our minds.

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About madyson007

I am a mom of 4 who thought she was home free with her oldest son when he went off to college. My serious blunder? Genetics and being naive or maybe just plain stupid.
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